It's been a long time since I talked, I really been through a time I wasn't able to write or describe how I feel & it hurts, but today I felt like talking & heard the voices inside my head telling me to talk..

I was a great talker & I used to talk a lot, especially on the phone, but all of a sudden, I lost the ability to talk to people & I don't know why..

My mind turned to be a white sheet, I have nothing to say & even when I listen, I end up crying..

I'm trying to fix myself or as my friend say "you don't wanna fix yourself, you don't wanna mend your heart, your just so stupid that you can't forget & won't let go"
Maybe hes right, mabey he is wrong & maybe I'm just fooling myself, but all I knowthat right know I can't let go, I won't let go & I'm not ready to do that..

I know it's over, it's done, there is no going back, but a have to take a time, I have to move forward, but I wish I can..

For me he wasn't just a nice person I met randomly, or someone who drowned me with sweet words & sneaky promises. He was the present and the future, he was the dream that I never dreamed, he was the man I never knew, he was the life I never lived, he was the feelings I never felt, he was almost everything.

I saw him as the father I never had, as the lover I always wanted, as the friend I never met. I saw him as teh father of my Childs, as the mate in my lonely nights, I saw him as my life...

For me he will always be the best thing that ever happend in my life.
//EVEN ANGELS FALL

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January 2010