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I hate being alone.
I've been alone since I were born, and I'm still, but I still haven't gotten used to it.
I should have, after all these years alone.
I don't have a caring family, atleast not one that shows it.
The only thing my mom shows is hate, my dad is never home, Kevin is a jerk and my little sister is only two years oldr.
I've always been doing my homework all on my own since my parents don't really have an education.
So I dislike when people say it's hard and boring doing homework or studying for a test, since I have it harder, I don't have parents who can help me nor do I have much time, since I'm the oldest child and I'm a girl.
That means I have to take care of everything in the house and take care of my siblings.
I don't have any friends either, because if I had I wouldn't be alone, and even if I had they won't give me time to be with them.
My parents always compare me with other people, celebrites, and like people that ain't average.
So I got alot of pressure and stress, that's might be the reason for my depression and my thoughts of suiciding.
They wouldn't have known the truth if I haven't told them, the teachers and my classmates always thought I had it perfect and was happy, but actually I'm the total opposite.
I always look out of the window and see alot of happy people with their family, friends or their partner.
I'm jealouse, I wished I could smile like them.
I've tried killing myself a several times, but I didn't manage to complete it.
I went to BUP, but the only thing they did was to lock u up in a all white room and drug you.
That's why I can't stand seing all white things, even though i have alot in my room.
Now I'm going to UMO, and they've given me medicin and I'm talkig to them weekly.
Now I'm medicating and going on therapy, I hope that will help me out.
Even though it's been over ten years now.
That's might be a good thing to know before you get to know me to well.
Annons
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Anonymous
Sun 13 Mar 2011 10:44
*kram*
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