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I dreamed last night that I and all the people I actually love was a sort of camp all summer. I was happy, no one pushed me, nobody hit me and no one was mean at all. there was a house where you could build things, a cottage for those who wanted to sew, and also a place for archery, javelin, and fencing.
but at the end of a month, all gathered in a large building to be'' approved'' by the evil counselor Stefan.
if we were not'' approved'' of him, he could kill us the way he wanted and it was legal.
my family was approved first and then I was approved.
Kaze and a person also known as Philip had not been approved yet so I stayed and waited for them which ended with Stefan forgoting that I was passing so when I would follow kaze and Philip out he shot me in the arm. We ran out to different parts of the camp and I ran towards the house No. 9. after a while, I meet kaze too and we sit down and talk when we see Stefan comes running with a shotgun at the ready. I start running and kaze also when I meet mom she says she'll try to help me but when i fall, at the ground, and Stefan approaching both kaze and mom just stand and watch as if I was not worth rescue.
when Stefan approached so I cried out'' please shoot me! I'm not afraid of dying but I'm actually afraid of the pain!'' but the worst was the fact that mom and kaze agree with Stefan that it was best to kill me.
they betrayed me.
it shows what I'm afraid of in the reallity...
kaze to go in my class but she is never at the school ... every day I go to school in the hope that she will be there, but she is never there.
mom has never really understood what I've tried to explain how people treat me. she never believed me.
Annons