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feels like the only thing that's going rigth is school. not that my life sucks or anything but sometimes I just wanna cry. don't know why. or to be honest, I do know why and I shouldn't really think about it. but i know it would be better if I talked to him. unfortanetly I'm too scared to face him alone and when I see him on the street I run way. no matter if I'm all alone or with friends. I just run. because, honestly what am I gonna tell him? that i miss him? that I wish things would have been different? I don't know
I could really need som advise, since I'm no good at relationships( of any kind). I've screw up a lot. not just my own realitonships. I do have a HUGE problem with letting people close. everytime someone's start to get under my skin I push them away. far FAR away. I don't mean to. it's just that my heart and mind doesn't go along. as soon as my heart feels okey (that's when I'm starting to get happy), my mind becomes the boss and decide to take away what's making me happy. what's making me stop thinking of the things that have happened and what might happen. all those bad memories I have. all those memories of people I once loved and now've lost.
don't know what to do ...
I could really need som advise, since I'm no good at relationships( of any kind). I've screw up a lot. not just my own realitonships. I do have a HUGE problem with letting people close. everytime someone's start to get under my skin I push them away. far FAR away. I don't mean to. it's just that my heart and mind doesn't go along. as soon as my heart feels okey (that's when I'm starting to get happy), my mind becomes the boss and decide to take away what's making me happy. what's making me stop thinking of the things that have happened and what might happen. all those bad memories I have. all those memories of people I once loved and now've lost.
don't know what to do ...