Rant....random..

Correct me if i am wrong, but is it not the same to play an instrument were you dedicate time and motivation to learn, to see, to enjoy the happiness the music you play gives you and the advances you make every time you learn a new note or song.

As to play video games? or do any other hobbies?

I love playing video games and i know it's taken it's effect on my body and health, i'm fat, i have bad vision, i'm lazy and lost some sense in social life.
But even so i have learn a lot, some of the most important things in life i have gained knowledge from gaming, things i can't learn in life the way i am and you may think it's not true or it's not possible only because it's a video game, making it fictional and not real, but that's pretty obvious to anyone.

But it doesn't mean that the message of the game is a lie, people who haven't played video games in a way to understand them think like that, but don't realize that they are the same as me only they see it in another form or way.

many see that form in music and i'm not saying music lies, because it doesn't music is just as beautiful as any other thing we think great of.
A gamer like me can find inspiration and motivation to do anything in real life from video games, even songs can make it happen.
Hobbies are hobbies and even for some it's a life style or career.

I wrote this because my dad doesn't approve of the life-style that i have chosen, he wanted me to follow his footstep and learn to the harmonica, but i just can't.
between us too much has happened for me to be able to follow him anymore and i feel bad for it...because i know he loves me and i love him too, but i can't see myself giving him the respect he wants if not shown any respect back.

I know old people are very very smart and have great wisdom but if they can't control them-self how do they expect us to listen to what they say?
for example:
he is a musician.
i'm a gamer.

we are both fat, a bit lazy and very unsure of things.
we both like our hobbies and can sometimes be to stuck in it while playing.

But i still do what i have to do, i have learned how to cook and how to fix most of the electronical stuff, how to use a sewing machine and i even take care of all the important calls which can be annoying..

but my dad has lost all motivation, he doesn't want learn the language so that he can find a job or manage something alone, he doesn't want learn how to use a computer in it's basic level.

i know i sound super selfish i won't denied that but i can't take care of them forever...i have to live my own life and i can't be here with them.

i love my family and even if i must endure pain, sorrow and even sacrifice the game time that i love, i will not hesitate.
To be able to handle desperate or sad moments is what it means to be strong..done it 3 times so far...hopefully it won't be anymore than this.

luckily i can find motivation in most things, that way i won't be sad for long...

Anyway, the point which should have been written earlier is that you should not judge people for their hobbies or way to be, i know old people can sometimes miss that...and while i was writing this text i understood that i was complaining on something i knew already but forgot.

like i said correct me if i am wrong...i'm sure there is something.

oh yeah.
just something to add, maybe someone finds it interesting.. ^^
2 ways i can find motivation.

1. you try to remember something that has happened in the past, can be good or bad, if good just try to see it happening again only with more affection to it, to have a stronger feeling towards it.
If bad memory then you must endure the though of it and come to a sense were you don't want it to happen again or to feel that same feeling you felt then, fight against it and crush it.

2. Some may not have any of that kind of memory, so instead try to fantasies or remember an awesome scene from a movie or words you have heard before, i know it sounds weird but you must go beyond the though of it only being fake or just a fantasy, you have to make it real and find that sensation of being there at the moment and seal away everything else just focus on that feeling.

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August 2017