I don't know if anything is gonna come out of this, just really felt like writting stuff again.
I was watching -Stranger things-, which i found was pretty damn well and as much as i tried not watching all of it in one go, i couldn't stop myself.
It got really intense and had a very nice flow, although i won't spoil it.
It gave me a really nostalgic feeling from old movies i've seen, everything from action, mystery and horror clichés.

But mostly got me thinking about well really a lot of things, how the world works, people etc, but mostly i was going through -Ready Player One- in my head, thinking of how it would work as a series rather a movie, the feeling i got from -Stranger Things- felt like it would work incredibly well with this kind of scenery and since it's about 367 pages, i think a series would be better.
Which for the matter, is a book i recommend to read if you are into the mind of a gamer/nerd/geek etc it may not sound locking but don't judge.

Well back to topic, if there now is one.
Another that got into my mind is how general most things have become and this is obvious ofc to most people i guess, but there's a routine that many follow, not just morning or after work routines, i mean in life, the average way as i know it is pretty, Wake up, breakfeast, work, get home, eat, watch some tv and then sleep.
There's really not much to it but it's not that which confounds me about, it's that people follow it like their life depends on it and in a way it's frustating because these people or parents, always puts this as rules, you don't follow you get punished.
The law works the same, in a much bigger spectrum tho and much more severe punishment...for most part atleast, since there are always psyckos out there.

I hate that kind of thinking, that you have to do this and that, still obviously i'm bound to follow it if i want food on the table, survive but being force to do it because the ones in control never let you have a choice, which is funny because no matter how free you are, you'll never actually be free, laws you know?
Which is why i have gotten attached to reading again, ready player one has all of these points but the circumstances around the characters in the book are just in a way perfect, it's freedom as we all want it, to do whatever and it's gorgeous to daydream about, test your imagination and see how far you come.

This movie and book, has given me thought's that could change every perspective and look on our society, unfortunately it's still just a dream and hope, but it's nice tho, right?
Watching the series, gives me the feel to write a story, change my way of thought and i love, i wanna think a bit more realistic and have my kid imagination at heart all the time, because really why should we grow up?
I don't want live in a world where i have to be something i'm not, yet forced to it we are.
But i've decided, i'm going to write a story, im gonna make a game and im gonna keep at it till my end of time.
it's funny, i tried talking about this to my dad, which is a fine example to all of this and i pretty much got ignored, all he could talk about was, you gotta slim down because you are too fat, gotta get a job so you can have money and pay off whatever, get a girl and settle down with a family etc went on and on with everything i already knew but i never got him to understand that im not cut out for work at the moment, i want to study i want to learn things, expand my brain and more but, with little support where will i get, right?
That's why this average and normal way of life is frustating.

It's 5 in the morning, im writting junk as usual haha, well it's alright.
I want to change tho, that i need to do, don't know how or into what but i need to get out of this lazy life, i want to be me, but it's gonna be a long process because i still don't know who i really am.
sometimes i wonder, have i suffered enough to change? do i have to suffer? is it really a part of life and well you get the picture, im confused and lost, can't find motivation or ambition, yet all i hear is that im making progress others don't and it pains me because i really don't think im doing anything of worth..im really useless.

My life, the way i see it now, well never have pretty ending or faith, it won't have an affecting story or a legend to leave behind, i just can't understand motivations and myself..hopefully someday i will.
hopefully soon.

well im gonna leave it here, goodnight people.

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August 2017