sometimes almost unstoppable...flow of emotions... recent death of a close one comes to my mind often these days...

Yes....i can understand that.....werry well actually.......hmmmm.............
This way u are now explains a lot of things hapening....well.......
As sayd before, if it´s time, and you wish to leave this realm...i wount stop you....i´l help you to go...
after all....freedom is the final destination. And i definietly wount recommend staying in this hell hole any longer than nessesary....
However...and this is atleast a bit selfish... i wish, you´d stay for a while longer:)

I´m glad u regret nothing......then u go as whole.)

Just a funny thought runns through my mind....it was u, who say´d im too far away from this world too....off... and urged me to engage life more and in more ways....and yes i do realise that sircumstances in my case, at that time, were diferent then whit u there now..... or maybe not so mutch...anyways....what ever hapens......u have my unconditional suport, as allways....
*flames dance in the cat´s eyes as he watches u from a distance*

i know..
but sometimes there's just too much..it lasts too long...and i loose motivation..
people, faces..all have their agendas, their problems..teachers trying to explain something..but all i see is their hidden thoughts and agendas, and it just pushes me away more..
even when i try i cant hear their words, they mean nothing to me..just echo's...
i am like out of fase, parallel, separate..also they can kind of see me in the corner of their eyes..but not really regestering..
i dont know..i think i'm loosing the connection to this reality..
well..whatever happens..I regret nothing.
.)

Shadows in the mist....so i'v come to call this....time ..... misplaced....between actions....in a place where the test is....to just wait untill the wheel turns again... to watch others step into they'r places.... and see the pattern unfold.....

I know it wont seam like a great oportunity atm.....but this moment to observe is usually for a reason.... new chapter beginning/old ending.... u might see things and sides about yourself otherwise hidden and about others....soo......observe....everything.)

sry for speaking like a wiseass.....just that.....atleast once I have walked through a time like that...and didnt see mutch... for it felt like...... well.....not good...... yet...... it brings clarity.