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Reaching the quarter-mark...
When i was a kid, say around 8 years old, i was utterly convinced that people grew up to be at least a hundred years old. At that young age though, i think, that the 3 digit number may just have been an illusion of eternal life or simply unawareness. Nothing weird with that though, just healthy i might add. It would sound quite unnatural for a kid, merely halfway through its childhood, to start thinking about the end and meaning of its life. Would be like just getting in to your first real relationship and right away start doubting your "affections" and start thinking about "divorce". Children often have a "better to ask forgiveness than permission" attitude by nature. Maybe thats one of the reasons we were expressing emotions and thoughts so easily, strongly and honestly at that age. We lived "in the moment" a lot more and just experienced everything we felt at the time. We didnt think that much about the past, little did we worrie about the outcome of current actions and we didnt, for one second, hold ourselves back preparing for the strains of future events. Personally i was always, at least in my mind, the strongest, smartest, coolest criminal-crushing hero the world had ever seen.
A lot has happend since i was 8, as it has for everyone. I can sometimes dream back to the time when you were just learning about yourself, as a human being. Your parents took care of most of the world for you. You just, sort of, had to worry about yourself in that moment. After that, the teenage years. You know the ones when your parents still helped you with most of the world but you didn't want them to. Maybe thats when we experience out first real problem in life that has to be worked out. And since we were beginners, white belts, in the "art of problemsolving" we of course looked to the quickest, easiest short-term solution. "I should just leave, run away" i wonder how many times i said that to myself then. You just wanted your parents to let go. Until they suddenly did. Just a little more then you expected so you almost begged them to pull you back into their arms again.
Today, Im not 8 years old anymore, nor am i 15 wanting to run away, or even 20. I know im not immortal and that the "quarter mark" if you look at the average lifetime of a 21th century human being is a lot more than a quarter mark. Its been many years now since my parents let me take care of myself and take on the world, which ive done! Its not been a walk in the park, suprise? nope, life isn't, thats for sure. But it can be almost everything we want it to be if we are willing to fight for it and never give up. As i've learnd from my life as a child and as a teenager. I will live in the moments of happiness and success. Learn as much as i possibly can from problems and misstakes, not run away from them. Im not a white-belt anymore :)
When i was a kid, say around 8 years old, i was utterly convinced that people grew up to be at least a hundred years old. At that young age though, i think, that the 3 digit number may just have been an illusion of eternal life or simply unawareness. Nothing weird with that though, just healthy i might add. It would sound quite unnatural for a kid, merely halfway through its childhood, to start thinking about the end and meaning of its life. Would be like just getting in to your first real relationship and right away start doubting your "affections" and start thinking about "divorce". Children often have a "better to ask forgiveness than permission" attitude by nature. Maybe thats one of the reasons we were expressing emotions and thoughts so easily, strongly and honestly at that age. We lived "in the moment" a lot more and just experienced everything we felt at the time. We didnt think that much about the past, little did we worrie about the outcome of current actions and we didnt, for one second, hold ourselves back preparing for the strains of future events. Personally i was always, at least in my mind, the strongest, smartest, coolest criminal-crushing hero the world had ever seen.
A lot has happend since i was 8, as it has for everyone. I can sometimes dream back to the time when you were just learning about yourself, as a human being. Your parents took care of most of the world for you. You just, sort of, had to worry about yourself in that moment. After that, the teenage years. You know the ones when your parents still helped you with most of the world but you didn't want them to. Maybe thats when we experience out first real problem in life that has to be worked out. And since we were beginners, white belts, in the "art of problemsolving" we of course looked to the quickest, easiest short-term solution. "I should just leave, run away" i wonder how many times i said that to myself then. You just wanted your parents to let go. Until they suddenly did. Just a little more then you expected so you almost begged them to pull you back into their arms again.
Today, Im not 8 years old anymore, nor am i 15 wanting to run away, or even 20. I know im not immortal and that the "quarter mark" if you look at the average lifetime of a 21th century human being is a lot more than a quarter mark. Its been many years now since my parents let me take care of myself and take on the world, which ive done! Its not been a walk in the park, suprise? nope, life isn't, thats for sure. But it can be almost everything we want it to be if we are willing to fight for it and never give up. As i've learnd from my life as a child and as a teenager. I will live in the moments of happiness and success. Learn as much as i possibly can from problems and misstakes, not run away from them. Im not a white-belt anymore :)
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