This is what I look like..I'm a human with feelings..

I really wish I was never born to dwell on this earth like the lie of a man I am..
I wish I didn't have what I have or what I had.. cuse I really don't feel like I deserve it..
I wish for my escape, to be reality.. to be a soldier of the false freedom that should be granted the people that deserve it..
I wish I never loved and lost.. to never met you M or E.
I wish I never knew what pain it's like.. to have loved someone like I have done and what I would do for an other person and wouldn't get that back..

No matter what I do will not make a different..
No matter what I wish for will make a different..
No matter I fight for will make a different..
No matter what say will make a different..
No matter I act will make a different..

Realize that.. and you know your in my position.

Yet still I'm here writing this.. why? Cuse I have to see what it leads to.. Nothing..

Probably nowhere..

Just 21yrs old have to wait and see..

Just have to keep breathing...
Just have to keep resist the temptation of killing myself..
Just have to keep my hopes up I will feel joy in some way again..

Alcohol and sex use to make me happy and forget...

Now they just keep reminding me of..

What I had..
What I could have done different..
What I should have done different..
What misstakes I've done..
What a horrible person I really am..
What I should do..

I start tomorrow to chance myself for no reason...

Probably won't make any difference anywhere..

Probably better then dying one day at the time like I do now..

Good Night anybody...

Kenny.W 02.47 12/2-2013

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Camera K770i

Focal length mm

Aperture f/2.5

Shutter 1/8 s

ISO 800

Date

April 2013