September
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Thursday 28 July 2011 photo 1/1
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Missing someone is tough. But when you miss alot of people, that's a pain. It hurts so bad, and the heart breaks a little more for every person.
I wish I could go back, just a few weeks when things at least were okay. I can't say I was happy every day, but at least I knew who I was.
Now I don't know what's right, which way to go or what to do. I feel lost without you guys.
The past few years have gone fast. We knew that this day would come, but back then it felt like a life time until then.
But it arrived, way too soon. There we were, with the future ahead of us, and we knew that this was it. Everyone would go their own way.
Before, everything seemed so simple. We didn't have to worry about the future, we could just live our lives and be happy. But now we have to face hard decision, decisions we don't want to make.
I know that everything has its time, but I never wanted this to end.
When I look back at all the memories we've shared, I feel good. I feel happy. But then my heart is filled with sorrow, because I know that we can never go back. We can never experience those things again. It's over, and that breaks my heart more than anything. To know that I won't see all of you everyday, which I have for the last three to ten years. That's the weirdest feeling I've had in a long time.
I remember the last day. We were embracing each other, comforting each other. Reassuring each other that we would keep in touch. But when it comes down to it, who has time for old friends? Our new lives begin this fall. New school and new friends. And even if some of our friendships remain, it can never be the same. Everything's changing, and I hate it.
I would like to thank every single one of you. It doesn't matter if you've been part of my life for three years, or for ten years.
The years have gone. Together with you I've felt invisible, unhappy and broken. But all those things doesn't seem important when I compare them to how happy I've been. It hasn't always been that easy, but what in life is?
With all of you I've felt safe. And that's what matters.
The last months with you people were the best months of my life so far. I realized that I had some really great friends, some that I might have taken for granted.
The last months we got closer than ever, and I never wanted to let go of that. Some of you became like my best friends. And I hate that i didn't realize it sooner. I didn't realize how much I love all of you, how much I actually need you. It's like they say. You never realize what you have until you you've lost it. And then it's too late.
It'll get easier with time, I know that. But I will carry every single one of you with me for the rest of my life. I will remember these years. When I'm old, I will be able to look back and say that I went to a great school, with great friends who's always been there for me no matter what.
I love you all. More than you could ever imagine
Visa toppen
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