I have been strugeling whit a feeling for some time now.

So when i was 13 years old i was raped by my first boyfriend i have ptsd after what happend and i hade problems getting over it (i will probubly tell more about dat later on) but to understand this feeling you need to know i was raped.

So ever sens this happend even tho i was really hurt by it and tho i wish it never happend i finde myself wanting to be raped again.
I really dont know whats wrong whit me but i just really feel turnd on by the thout about someone raping me or being in a bdsm/SnM relationship ever sens.

I feel really bad for having this feeling and i feel like something is wrong whit me but i just cant seem to stop enjoying the thout of it.

(sorry for my bad spelling and bad gramar i am Swedish and i dont speek English perfectly)

someone help me tell me whats wrong whit me

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February 2015