här är del 2 i ''how they botch felt'' ~Its cold…~ Naruto blinked. ~Where am I?~ He realised that he was being held. Held by someone. ~.. Mom?~ “Naruto…” He couldn’t see the face of the one holding him, only a white and almost shining silhouette of a woman. But he could feel that she was smiling. Smiling at him. He could feel the warmth of another person beside him, and hear the heartbeats. He realised, that he had never been held like this, nor had he ever been able to be this close to another person. He closed his eyes. ~Mom… I'm…. tired….of everything~ He cuddled into her arms, tears escaping his eyes yet again. ~I can’t do this anymore. I’m just so tired. ..~ He opened his eyes a little and looked up at her. ~Its like, no one cares… about who I am, what I want to do, to be. ~ The woman didn’t say anything, she just held him closer and smiled again. It felt better than a thousand words, when she smiled. He didn’t know why. It just felt good… “Naruto!!” Some one was... “Calling me?” He knew and trusted the voice, even though he couldn’t remember who it belonged to. “Naruto!! Wake up!” The voice was yelling, but it was like the person was far far away. ~ I have to… wake up... ~ Naruto began to sit up, but was stopped by a thrusting pain in his heart. He grasped his shirt. ~No… I can’t... go back... ~ He looked concerned and sad again. ~I’m too... tired. ~ He began to cry again. He didn’t want to go home. He closed his eyes, and lay down once again, while the lady began to stroke his hair gently. “NARUTO!” Sasuke was yelling his lungs out. What was wrong with him anyway? He was beginning to get that feeling once again... Like someone was pulling at his heart... Like there was an empty hole in his stomach... What was this feeling? He frowned once again… He had this feeling when he was younger, in the first year after he lost his family... Then the feeling of detesting his brother took over. But this. This was different… It was a nervous feeling. “….. Mom? …….” He heard Naruto whisper... Even though it was raining, Sasuke could clearly see the tears that were now streaming down of his cheeks. “It... hurts…” Sasuke snapped back to reality, and had to think fast. He had to get him inside. “Naruto?!” He tried one last time. “Cant... Too tired.” It was but a whisper, but Sasuke could clearly hear it through the upcoming storm. He decided quickly, and bend down to pick up Naruto, But stopped when he realised how pale he was. He was also very, very cold... Too cold... And all of a sudden, he wasn’t shivering anymore… Sasuke stiffened. ~don’t tell me!!~ He opened naruto’s jacket and put a hand up under his shirt to feel. Naruto’s heart was beating... But very slow... ~Why is he this cold already? And how the fuck did he get into this condition this fast? ~ ~What in the whole fucking world happened to him?!~ Sasuke felt like hitting, crashing and breaking something now. But instead, he lifted Naruto up, and was surprised at how light he was. ~I knew he had lost weight~ He picked up naruto’s headband and began to run... The cold air was stinging in his lungs and throat, and the rain was blurring his vision, but somehow he managed to get home to the Uchiha mansion without further trouble. He kicked up the door, and ran in without even thinking of taking off his shoes, or even closing the door, he just ran directly into the dining room, put Naruto on the floor, and went into his own room and got a futon, then went to the kitchen and got some bandages and first-aid. “C-cold… “ Naruto whispered again. He was shivering weakly now. Sasuke put down the futon and gently lifted Naruto up and out him on it. “Now let’s get those wounds treated” He mumbled to himself. He carefully moved the hair that was covering up the wound on his head, and was shocked. The wound seemed to be caused by something hard, like a rock or something. And it was still bleeding heavily. He began to dry away all the blood, and realised that his face was full of small bruises and scratches. “What the hell did you get yourself into, usuratonkachi.” Naruto slowly opened his eyes again... Small parts of his body were stinging. Especially his forehead, where the rock hit. He reached up, but stopped in the middle op the movement. “Mom? ... It hurts.” The woman said nothing. He could still hear his name being called in his mind, but didn’t want to think more about it. He wanted to go asleep again... just sleep... “I’m tired... It’s so cold” The woman still said nothing. Naruto started to feel very cold. He began to shiver. “M-mom?” He was beginning to feel afraid. Suddenly the woman wasn’t looking as warm as she did before... It wasn’t a warm, comforting light that surrounded her anymore. It was hard, cold and frightening. Naruto rose up. He wanted to get away. He knew He should have known from the very beginning. There is no one who will ever love him. No one who will ever let him seek comfort. Never hug him, kiss him, tell him that they love him, not even just hold his hand. There was no one to tell him that everything was going to be okay. And that, alone. Was enough. Enough to end it all for. He was just so tired. Tired of everything. He just wanted to go to sleep. To forget everything. … Forever. …

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December 2010