"Suicide Hotline, may I help you?"
"Yea, uhh, Well, I'm about to fuckin' kill myself"
"Listen, ya don't wanna do that, okay you don't wanna do that, okay?"
"Im gonna uhhh..."
"There's so many fuckin' reasons why I don't even need to be here anymore, Imma put a slug in my fuckin' head"
"You don't wanna do that, you wanna be on earth, okay?
"Fuck that shit man, I got a gun right now"
"Put it away"
"And I got it right under my chin, man fuck that"
"Take it away from your chin"
"I'm gonna fuckin' blow my head all over the ceiling"
"No, you're not"
"Fuck this shit man"
"Hey, just talk to me, okay?

It aint no point to me wakin up
Everybody's time I'm takin up (Noo)
I got nobody, there aint a shoulder near
I can't stay here and it's colder there (where?)
I don't wanna look back 'cause its gonna hurt
I slice my wrist and It's gonna squirt
For me, everybody holds the hate
I get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake
There's no roads to take, I'm in a circle drive
Bustin' at myself an' I'm tryin' to survive
I'll dissapoint you, and I will let you down
I aint got many homeboys comin around
You don't understand, so dont say you do (yes, I do)
I swear I'll put a motherfuckin' slug in you (now now.)
I'm the only one, the lonely one
At home alone loadin' the gun, thinkin' why not?

"Why not? Why would you wanna die? Ok, Ok, you have feelings, inside your head, ok? I understand that. feelings lead to depression, When you have depression, you have a lonely void inside your heart, ok, and your heart means everything to the world, ok?"

I got court comin' up, I stoled a truck
I got a bitch pregnant and i'm broke as fuck
I wanna get high but I got piss test
I'm always first name on top of shit list
Get this, the witch has made my chest
it's permanent nightly visiting nest
There aint no clothes that I look good in
I'm like the motherfuckin' big red train that couldn't
I got no family, I stoled they shit
restraining orders, an' I still wont quit
I hit rock bottom, and then I fell in a hole
and then I fell through the floor, of that hole some more
I've been missin' for a year, nobody's lookin' (I am)
I got beat down an my shit tooken (Ooh)
I look ahead an all I see is more of the same
All this self-inflicted bullet hole, pourin my brain

"oook, I understand that you're in pain, ok? I understand everything you're going through, I've been there myself, ok, now, your pain is my pain, alright? And I feel your pain, And I wanna be your friend, just me and you
Friends."

I dream about cuttin' heads off wit a shovel
The dreams are gettin serious, think I'm in trouble
I dont hold memory for more then an hour
i'm tired as fuck, and i'm drained of power
I aint halfway there an im all out of time
I'm like a crushed lightbulb, all outta shine
I been all around the world an no place is home
I wanna see the other side when I face this chrome
I'm butt naked, i been jackin off, gettin' drunk
It's my last hours alive, who gives a fuck? (me)
It dont matter, I'm doin this shit in the garage
Tryin' make it easier for them ta clean my head splage
This bitch I loved, I hope she finds me
Still up in the chair wit my thoughts behind me (Wait,Wait)
I'm about to do IT! (noooo) (A beep)
"Can you hold for a second?" (Wait, Wait)
(Gunshot)

"Hello?"
"Hey, whats up?"
"Where you at?"
"Right down the street."
"Wit who?"
"My girl Shannon. We were wonderin' if we could stop by?"
"Well, shit, yea, Come on by"
"Really?"
"Yea...Hey Hey..Hey"
"I know bring some blunts, Alright."
"Uh huh, aight, bye"

Annons

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November 2012