Ingen behöver läsa! Skriver av mig bara! WARNING :D

I was sad you know? The day you said that we would move away, not because of the reason you thought.. You thought it was because I couldn't meet my friends anymore.. No I gladly told them that I was moving away, and I smiled.. I wanted to move, but then I went to him.. When he saw me he started to cry and he couldn't stop.

" Dad, why are you crying? "

" Because you and your sister is moving away.."

I hugged him and told him it was going to be okey, a 8 year old kid took care of her dad. That's when I started to become sad over our move, and that's when I told myself that crying was wrong.

The new house was big and warm, but I hated it.. Everything felt wrong there, I wanted to go to my dad.. But you told me that I could only wisit him sometimes.. When the School started It didn't take a long time before the other kids started to bully me, I tried to tell you but you didn't listen.. And every night you and your new boyfriend started to scream at each other so I had to protect my scared little sister, I had no time to be sad.

Everyday I called him..

"Dad, you know.. There's a school event coming up and you are suppose to bring your father.. Can you come?"

"No darling, I have work.. I'm sorry."

Now when I'm older I found out that you didn't even have a job at that time. I guess that's when it's started.. I had no one to turn to. My mother didn't listen, and my father didn't care.. My brothers hated me, and one of my big sisters was sick so she couldn't help me.. My oldest sister sometimes invited me over to her house in gbg... That was the best time of the year, when I was I kid and thought about what I wanted my mother to be like I thought of her.

When I think back at my old self, It hasn't changed so much.. The difference is that now I can't cry, back then.. I always locked myself in the bathroom and cried rivers.. And when people talk about me as a kid, everyone is saying that I was the bravest, and happiest girl they've ever met.. I'm such a loser.. ^^

I don't really know why I wrote this, I never told anyone about this.. Haha

Annons

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August 2014