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Går du i självmordstankar?
Jag vet hur det är, för jag har själv gjort det.
Jag har försökt ta livet av mig många gånger.
Men lyckligtvis har jag aldrig lyckats.
Nu idag förstår jag hur själviskt det skulle varit.
Att bara somna in och slippa all skit, att lämna sina nära och kära.
Jag vet att det känns som att det inte finns nån utväg.
Men när man får hjälp så förstår man sen hur själviskt det skulle varit.
Så snälla, läs detta, om du har eller haft självmordstankar.
Wanna kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over. You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time.
A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come and tell you dinners ready. You don’t answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you’re asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She’s screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that “Mommy is crying and sissy won’t wake up." Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what’s going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying.
The next day at school, there’s an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular kids, they think of all the things they’ve said to you. Those persons that used to tease you and call you names, they can’t help but hate themselves for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you, can’t handle it. Your ex breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They’re sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? Inn shock. Simply can’t believe it. Your best friend knew what you were going through, but never thought it would get that bad… Bad enough for you to end it. Unable to cry, unable to feel anything, He/she stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out.
It’s a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that person with the bright smile and an amazing personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone’s crying, your little brother still doesn't know you killed yourself, he’s too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his older sibling, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, he/she just loses it, and cries and cries and doesn't stop for days.
It’s two years later. The whole school talks to a counselor/therapist at least once a week. Your teachers all quit their job. Your ex doesn't know how to love anymore and just falls into a life of drugs and depression. Your best friend tried to kill herself. She didn’t succeed like you did, but he/she tried … your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mum got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day.
People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don’t just effect you. They effect everyone. Don’t end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can’t get better if you give up.
Annons
Camera info
Camera Canon EOS 400D DIGITAL
Focal length 18 mm
Aperture f/4.0
Shutter 1/50 s
ISO 400
Smileyguy
Sat 13 Oct 2012 15:31
Tessan C:
Wed 3 Oct 2012 17:55
du som är så underbart fin ska inte ha självmordstankar :( <3 finns om du vill prata<3
Anonymous
Wed 3 Oct 2012 03:49
Kan folk sluta ladda upp den här texten? Jag mår inte direkt bättre av den. Jag mår snarare riktigt jävla mycket sämre av den. Den hjälper mig inte ett skit.
Anonymous
Sat 6 Oct 2012 02:54
I en grupp som denna borde man försöka respektera alla...
Smileyguy
Tue 2 Oct 2012 22:38
A few hours later, your bigger brother knocks on your door as so many times before when he wanted to rape you. You don’t answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you’re asleep. He notices something is odd. He grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. He tries to wake you up but notices the blood. Your brother, runs to go tell Dad that “She finally did it!" Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. Dad hits her, "what’s going on", and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to laugh. Your mom crawls away.
The next day at school, there’s an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent, exept a few people who are silently laughing. Everyone blames the girl. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular kids, they think of all the things they’ve said to you and smile. Those persons that used to tease you and call you names, they can’t help but feel really good, knowing they were part of your death.
The next day at school, there’s an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent, exept a few people who are silently laughing. Everyone blames the girl. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular kids, they think of all the things they’ve said to you and smile. Those persons that used to tease you and call you names, they can’t help but feel really good, knowing they were part of your death.
Smileyguy
Wed 3 Oct 2012 21:40
Tror att det är en blandning av båda. Tvekar på att hela skolan skulle vara ledsen.
Smileyguy
Wed 3 Oct 2012 21:42
Vissa skulle förmodligen må bra av tanken. Var inte naiva. 1-2% av befolkningen är sociopater.
Charina
Fri 5 Oct 2012 00:18
Tror inte att man känner alla i sin skola heller. Man har väl bättre grejer för sig än att bry sig om någon död, nån som man dessutom kanske inte ens känner.
Hårt det lät, aja.
Hårt det lät, aja.
Smileyguy
Tue 2 Oct 2012 22:32
Själviskt att tvinga folk leva som vill dö. Allt som händer efter är dessutom spekulationer. Beror helt på vilken situation man är i.
Anonymous
Tue 2 Oct 2012 19:55
Så jävla synd att man förstår när de är försent hur folk hade det, t ex dom populära tjejerna förstod ju bara efter hon dött de.
Charina
Tue 2 Oct 2012 18:52
Den där texten får mig att tänka på hur egoistiska andra människor kan vara som vill hålla kvar nån vid liv bara för att dom själva inte står ut med tanken på att leva utan den personen.
Charina
Fri 5 Oct 2012 00:17
Tycker att båda sakerna är lika egoistiska. Skulle aldrig hindra nån från att ta sitt liv även om jag själv inte ville att denne gör det. Jag har ingen rätt att låta en person leva mot dennes vilja.
LinneaKristin4
Sat 6 Oct 2012 18:30
som charina skrev.. att jag kan ju inte tvinga någon att leva men tycker fortfarande man är ego. och det är ju vad jag tycker?
Charina
Sun 7 Oct 2012 21:58
Jadå, du får tycka exakt vad du vill. Kanske lät som att det du tycker är fel men var inte min mening då! ^^
gladkatt
Tue 2 Oct 2012 17:33
känner igen mig, lite granna.
men bra text. gör väl bäst i att spara den, läsa den när jag tycker allt går ut å helvete.
men bra text. gör väl bäst i att spara den, läsa den när jag tycker allt går ut å helvete.
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