I don't know how to explain it anymore.
But. It feels like I'm never sleeping, that is how real it is. I wake up in my bed, I look around. I move around. I lie there trying to sleep and I think about stuff.. And I remember it perfectly.. Now, the only problem is. I can't tell if it is a dream or not? I can't tell... What I do know however is that every time I wake in a lucid dream my body prepares to astral travel and every time my mind has said no. I'm too tired physically so I say no. Even though that is just a human emotion.. I don't know why I keep saying no. But. That's just the thing with reverse psychology and how your sub conscious mind works. If you get it curious he will oppose you.

Anyhow. I am there awake in my lucid dream. And a shock wave hits me it doesn't hurt it's the astral vibrations needed to leave the body... I remember the feeling I slowly sank down out of my body and I told myself ah fuck no I don't want to astral. "Get me back inside a dream, dream of a skeleton" And I tried to force myself back into a dream with a skeleton.. Not exactly my brightest idea but... I remember seeing a skeleton but just for a second. Because after that my body floated back up into my body...

Here's the weird part.

Once back in my body the vibrations slowly faded and I did a reality check... I moved my body, my feet. I opened my eyes looked around... And I started thinking.

The thing is.... I don't know if I'm awake or asleep anymore. I mean... When I was 1000 % sure that I was awake I got up drank some water and I stayed up for 5-10 minutes... Because I seriously couldn't tell if it was just a dream or not.

I have to learn to control my Lucid Dreams and I have to stop denying Astral Travel.

End Of Journal.

19/1/2013

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September 2013