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Polymerisation - When?
We grew up together but we drifted apart,
I don't know when, maybe it doesn't play a part.
in this drama of broken hearts.
Only one thing is important, it's the way you you choose to leave me.
An I'm no judge but I know mercy when I see it.
Seven years and this is how it ends.
Stabbed in the heart by my best friend.
It isn't right, you can't leave me with a hole I don't know how to fill.
We went through hell, fuck it. We cried, we bled together.
And it made me think it would last forever.
You don't understand me, do you?
You'll never have this again, so why do you leave me?
You told me you haven't had a real friend for years.
You fuck I'm as real as it gets, but you'll be the one with regrets.
'cause if you lose me now you'll never forget it.
Why do you search for a friend, you won't find it.
Why would you rather chase something blind.
Than to cherish what you have.
I'm your best friend why can't you see it?
But you rather live in a nightmare, I can't protect you there.
I'd do what ever it takes, I'd sacrifice myself,
just to make sure you're safe, I don't care, even though you'd never do the same.
I love you, I'd take a bullet in the heart for you.
But it doesn't matter if I try 'cause you're the one with the gun in your hand...
Please make me understand, I don't know if I ever can.
I got over you, I was able to live. your prescence was erased, the hole was filled.
But you came to find me, yeah it was too hard for you to forget, you said you missed me.
Seven years is too much, even though you tried, I was stuck somewhere in your mind.
And that's the kindest thing you've ever told me.
Yeah I melted, my gate broke down. I forgave you in an instant! I was so happy, I cried.
You built me up, filled me with lies. And then you left me with an empty goodbye.
And I'm just trying to understand.
Why my heart's bleedin' lava.
Erupting inside, killing me slowly.
'cause you really hurt me this time.
I'm nothing' but broken.
Just tryin' to understand.
When is it enough?
'cause you really hurt me this time.
And I deserve more than an empty goodbye.
You can't see it but hear how I cry.
Don't I deserve more?
Than this black-hole that you left me?
The tears are really burnin' can't believe you left me.
Don't I deserve more?
Than a half-hearted goodbye.
You can't see it but hear how I cry.
'cause I'm nothin' in a world so alone.
When is it enough?
You hold my heart in your hand.
And you squeese so tight.
I'm losing my breath, my life fades into the light.
You don't know what it's like to live with guilt.
Every day, every night you just want to go back.
A second chance I thought everyone deserved it.
But I had none, and I lost it all.
First him and now you, that's too cruel.
You don't know what it's like.
You never even asked, so how could you understand.
What's it like with blood on your hands.
I live with pain so overwhelming I don't think I can survive.
And you just don't care you decided to go.
I've been thinking now for quite a while.
About the kind of person you are.
'cause to fuck me this deeply, it really fuckin' scars.
Don't know if you're brave or if is it a coward that you are?
'cause to turn truth into a lie,
to poison my air leavin' me to die.
After all that I've done for you.
I've never been this kind, and you decided to leave.
There's no need for this, Matt it's over.
We're reached an end the friendship is one-sided.
I'm sorry, but I won't disappear.
Secretly I just want to forget you.
You don't even know how low it really is.
To find a person and force your way back into their life.
Only to lie and leave like it meant nothing inside.
I'm nothing' but broken.
Just tryin' to understand.
When is it enough?
'cause you really fucked me this time.
And I deserve more than an empty goodbye.
You can't see it but hear how I bleed.
Don't I deserve more?
Than this black-hole that you left me?
The tears are really burnin' can't believe you left me.
Don't I deserve more?
Than a half-hearted goodbye.
You can't see it but hear how I bleed.
'cause I'm nothin' in a world so alone.
When is it enough?
You hold my heart in your hand.
And you squeese so tight.
I'm losing my breath, my life fades into the light.
What's wrong with you, do you think this is normal?
Do you ever think of what it's like for me?
That loves you so much that he can't breathe.
I don't understand it, I'm incapable, I can't see.
How a "friend" could do this to me.
But what hurts is the words.
I'm not good enough to play a part in your life.
You want seperation, there's a place for family and friends.
And there's a shadow for me.
I don't understand it, but it's okay, you want me to bleed huh?
When is it enough?
Take a knife and burrow it deep.
Cut my throat and watch me bleed.
Is it enough for you?
I'm not greedy, no I'm a reasonable man.
All that I wanted was for a friend to stay,
love and cherish me every once and then.
Someone that cared and talked to me.
But I'm in no focus, there's no spot-light for me.
It was all about you, all about you.
And here I am circling half-dead between this and before.
All the time together I thought it was "sure"
When a person pours both heart and soul,
why would the person ever say goodbye.
I can't understand it.
Why.
I'm nothing' but broken.
Just tryin' to understand.
When is it enough?
'cause you really fucked me this time.
And I deserve more than an empty goodbye.
You can't see it but hear how I bleed.
Don't I deserve more?
Than this black-hole that you left me?
The tears are really burnin' can't believe you left me.
Don't I deserve more?
Than a half-hearted goodbye.
You can't see it but hear how I bleed.
'cause I'm nothin' in a world so alone.
When is it enough?
You hold my heart in your hand.
And you squeese so tight.
I'm losing my breath, my life fades into the light.
We grew up together but we drifted apart,
I don't know when, maybe it doesn't play a part.
in this drama of broken hearts.
Only one thing is important, it's the way you you choose to leave me.
An I'm no judge but I know mercy when I see it.
Seven years and this is how it ends.
Stabbed in the heart by my best friend.
It isn't right, you can't leave me with a hole I don't know how to fill.
We went through hell, fuck it. We cried, we bled together.
And it made me think it would last forever.
You don't understand me, do you?
You'll never have this again, so why do you leave me?
You told me you haven't had a real friend for years.
You fuck I'm as real as it gets, but you'll be the one with regrets.
'cause if you lose me now you'll never forget it.
Why do you search for a friend, you won't find it.
Why would you rather chase something blind.
Than to cherish what you have.
I'm your best friend why can't you see it?
But you rather live in a nightmare, I can't protect you there.
I'd do what ever it takes, I'd sacrifice myself,
just to make sure you're safe, I don't care, even though you'd never do the same.
I love you, I'd take a bullet in the heart for you.
But it doesn't matter if I try 'cause you're the one with the gun in your hand...
Please make me understand, I don't know if I ever can.
I got over you, I was able to live. your prescence was erased, the hole was filled.
But you came to find me, yeah it was too hard for you to forget, you said you missed me.
Seven years is too much, even though you tried, I was stuck somewhere in your mind.
And that's the kindest thing you've ever told me.
Yeah I melted, my gate broke down. I forgave you in an instant! I was so happy, I cried.
You built me up, filled me with lies. And then you left me with an empty goodbye.
And I'm just trying to understand.
Why my heart's bleedin' lava.
Erupting inside, killing me slowly.
'cause you really hurt me this time.
I'm nothing' but broken.
Just tryin' to understand.
When is it enough?
'cause you really hurt me this time.
And I deserve more than an empty goodbye.
You can't see it but hear how I cry.
Don't I deserve more?
Than this black-hole that you left me?
The tears are really burnin' can't believe you left me.
Don't I deserve more?
Than a half-hearted goodbye.
You can't see it but hear how I cry.
'cause I'm nothin' in a world so alone.
When is it enough?
You hold my heart in your hand.
And you squeese so tight.
I'm losing my breath, my life fades into the light.
You don't know what it's like to live with guilt.
Every day, every night you just want to go back.
A second chance I thought everyone deserved it.
But I had none, and I lost it all.
First him and now you, that's too cruel.
You don't know what it's like.
You never even asked, so how could you understand.
What's it like with blood on your hands.
I live with pain so overwhelming I don't think I can survive.
And you just don't care you decided to go.
I've been thinking now for quite a while.
About the kind of person you are.
'cause to fuck me this deeply, it really fuckin' scars.
Don't know if you're brave or if is it a coward that you are?
'cause to turn truth into a lie,
to poison my air leavin' me to die.
After all that I've done for you.
I've never been this kind, and you decided to leave.
There's no need for this, Matt it's over.
We're reached an end the friendship is one-sided.
I'm sorry, but I won't disappear.
Secretly I just want to forget you.
You don't even know how low it really is.
To find a person and force your way back into their life.
Only to lie and leave like it meant nothing inside.
I'm nothing' but broken.
Just tryin' to understand.
When is it enough?
'cause you really fucked me this time.
And I deserve more than an empty goodbye.
You can't see it but hear how I bleed.
Don't I deserve more?
Than this black-hole that you left me?
The tears are really burnin' can't believe you left me.
Don't I deserve more?
Than a half-hearted goodbye.
You can't see it but hear how I bleed.
'cause I'm nothin' in a world so alone.
When is it enough?
You hold my heart in your hand.
And you squeese so tight.
I'm losing my breath, my life fades into the light.
What's wrong with you, do you think this is normal?
Do you ever think of what it's like for me?
That loves you so much that he can't breathe.
I don't understand it, I'm incapable, I can't see.
How a "friend" could do this to me.
But what hurts is the words.
I'm not good enough to play a part in your life.
You want seperation, there's a place for family and friends.
And there's a shadow for me.
I don't understand it, but it's okay, you want me to bleed huh?
When is it enough?
Take a knife and burrow it deep.
Cut my throat and watch me bleed.
Is it enough for you?
I'm not greedy, no I'm a reasonable man.
All that I wanted was for a friend to stay,
love and cherish me every once and then.
Someone that cared and talked to me.
But I'm in no focus, there's no spot-light for me.
It was all about you, all about you.
And here I am circling half-dead between this and before.
All the time together I thought it was "sure"
When a person pours both heart and soul,
why would the person ever say goodbye.
I can't understand it.
Why.
I'm nothing' but broken.
Just tryin' to understand.
When is it enough?
'cause you really fucked me this time.
And I deserve more than an empty goodbye.
You can't see it but hear how I bleed.
Don't I deserve more?
Than this black-hole that you left me?
The tears are really burnin' can't believe you left me.
Don't I deserve more?
Than a half-hearted goodbye.
You can't see it but hear how I bleed.
'cause I'm nothin' in a world so alone.
When is it enough?
You hold my heart in your hand.
And you squeese so tight.
I'm losing my breath, my life fades into the light.
Annons