"Will someone come?
Will someone take my hand before i fall?
I wish these questions could be answered before i take my leap of faith..
But that would require a miracle, wouldn't it?"

Sometimes i wonder for how long i'm going to continue this circle, doesn't matter which side i turn to because it will always be the same in the end.
I walk this same road everyday and yet nothing happens, same people, buildings and cars.
I want to change this, it's boring..there is just no spark anymore or any emotions..
I would like to taste that special feeling once again and feel alive...

One day though, the day...it happened, i didn't see it coming, i didn't even realize it but i was feeling it again, a feeling where sadness couldn't reach and i was overwhelmed by it, by this soft, fuzzy feeling that seems to never waiver or disappear and i was happy, from the hours we spent to days talking i hoped it could never end.
But as you know every story has darkness to it, although we could spend every minute talking to each other...we still couldn't meet and for each passing day we became more and more distant..
I knew that it was to good to be true, but i never felt like giving up or more i knew i couldn't give it a rest or i would have to yet another eternity in the circle..i don't want to go there again.

Every day i tried harder and harder to close the distance between, it didn't matter how much pain i would have to endure i was determined to do this, to break this barrier and reach this impossible dream.
Friends almost given up on me, told me that it was impossible and unreachable...sometimes i would give in to their saying and stop trying...till one day it just stopped, everything just went blank...no traces of my hard work..just emptiness.
Somehow unconsciousness i fell into the circle again, back into the boring life with no colors or motives...just another blank page..
years passed and we became old, i had manage to break from it for a second time but unfortunately for me it was too late..i saw happiness, joy and life...but i wasn't in it, i fell into despair all the way down to rock bottom beyond the circle, down into a vast loneliness..

Family and friends gave up, couldn't make me listen anymore and stopped caring about it completely..
I was about to end it once and for all, throw away everything and hope that the smile of my certain one would never stop...
As i stood at the peak of this cliff, the only thoughts that came to mind where..
Will someone come?
Will someone take my hand before i fall?
I wish these questions would be answered before i take my leap of faith..
But that would require a miracle, wouldn't it?

I didn't take a look back, because i didn't want any regrets i did my best and even if my best didn't succeed at least i gave it my all..
The view helped calm myself, i was ready..i took one more look at the horizon..
The wind was calmed, almost as if it understood me completely..
I took one step forward and before i took my last one, someone grabbed my arm, pulled me back with full force...i couldn't believe my eyes, even before i understood the situation, tears fell like waterfalls and i was in shock..
Standing in front of me was my dream, i couldn't explain it or comprehend it all i could feel was a warm and tender touch, such of which i never felt before.
A miracle, maybe...never will i be able to understand what just happened and it didn't matter anymore, all i know is that i have fulfilled my dream and nothing would take it away from me.

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August 2017