26 May 2010
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Mental Meltdown
Blog post from SoclogI'm literally going nuts.
I'm writing in English today (tonight? lol) because I just have a feeling that
I need to focus on something else than what I'm thinking about.
And to do so I've chosen to write in English.
Today's been... slow, and awkward - not that you'd know anything about
it, since no one actually reads this shit anyway.
If I ever would've been born without a brain, and somehow would
manage to survive; I probably wouldn't like it right now.
But as it is right now - with brain and all; I sometimes wish I just could press
a button and shut it down, enter Auto-Pilot-state and just follow my heart.
But unfortunately it's not possible, damnit.
Either it's this, or it simply is that, but either way you somehow encounter
difficult choices over, and over, and over again through life, and I
guess that's just the way the story goes - but it still annoys me like a
mosquito biting you and buzzing around in your room while you
try to sleep.
Btw, awesome song:
Mayday Parade - I'd hate to be you when people
realize what this song is about.
I'm writing in English today (tonight? lol) because I just have a feeling that
I need to focus on something else than what I'm thinking about.
And to do so I've chosen to write in English.
Today's been... slow, and awkward - not that you'd know anything about
it, since no one actually reads this shit anyway.
If I ever would've been born without a brain, and somehow would
manage to survive; I probably wouldn't like it right now.
But as it is right now - with brain and all; I sometimes wish I just could press
a button and shut it down, enter Auto-Pilot-state and just follow my heart.
But unfortunately it's not possible, damnit.
Either it's this, or it simply is that, but either way you somehow encounter
difficult choices over, and over, and over again through life, and I
guess that's just the way the story goes - but it still annoys me like a
mosquito biting you and buzzing around in your room while you
try to sleep.
Btw, awesome song:
Mayday Parade - I'd hate to be you when people
realize what this song is about.
http://www.youtube.com/v/N9aTXM1PMKs&hl=sv_SE&fs=1&
Back to the subject:
Babble, Babble, Bitch, Bitch, Rebel, Rebel, Party, Party
Sex, Sex, Sex and don't forget the violence
Blah Blah Blah got your Loveydovey sad and lonely
stick your stupid slogan in, everybody sing along (8)
Another good song!
But yeah, I have no fucking idea what to do, I'm thinking about
laying low and see what happens, if it turns out to be shit - so be it.
If I finally can decide what's a go and no go - Happy fucking holiday!
Now I'm off to bed, I'm tired of staying up all alone thinking about stuff
that only leads to my own depressive ways of unwanted attention.
See you in neverland.
Direct link:
http://dayviews.com/des3x/2010/5/26/