Thursday 10 June 2010 photo 1/1
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The words I am telling myself when I am standing in the front of the mirror.. The words I am telling myself at night before I go to sleep .. Those words are not suposed to make me happy.. Things like how ugly you are, how meanless you are and how the world doesn´t want you .. And every night I pray that I will close my eyes and never open them again .. Then everything would be so much easier ..
If I didn´t exist ..
Everyday I think about how love can be so unfair. And how unloved I seem to be .. I´m always feeling alone and I just want to feel like I matter to someone . I want to find someone that I can trust .. Because I hate when all the tears comes at night and I cant talk to someone about it ..
But my heart has given up ..
And this pain you get when everything feels bad ..
for me ,
It wont go away ..
If I didn´t exist ..
Everyday I think about how love can be so unfair. And how unloved I seem to be .. I´m always feeling alone and I just want to feel like I matter to someone . I want to find someone that I can trust .. Because I hate when all the tears comes at night and I cant talk to someone about it ..
But my heart has given up ..
And this pain you get when everything feels bad ..
for me ,
It wont go away ..