Sunday 31 July 2011 photo 1/2
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All of this text is going to take wide detours out in the wild, one second talking about love and friendship could completely turn around into being about backstabbing and hatred for your ex or ex-friend. I don’t actually know if it’s any readable value in it or something you could actually enjoy but I'm writing it just to “pour my heart out" and letting people know that it isn’t only you who are having a hard time sometimes. And again I know many people are way to ignorant and arrogant to even bother reading something like this, and I can just say that I would have been one of them. As you maybe already understand I’m a Swedish bloke who live in the southern of Sweden, and yes it’s going to be a lot of grammar faults in it although hardly no misspelling, just won’t be.
So today I’m continuing on the text which explains my perspective of life, for some reason it's a bit changed. I've found out that I'm not the only one in need of some social company in life. For example, earlier this week I met a person about the same age as me, a bloke I briefly know. And with briefly I mean, met him before and I know where he lives and who his girlfriend used to be but no more. None more than that, I don't know why, and I don't know that one thing that made him break down, making him grow into his bed and cry his eyes out when no one saw him. And to many it may have sounded ridiculous, “a bloke crying ? That never happens!" but I can promise you that we do. It isn't many people who know about it but trust me it is. And it's each to he's own if you feel like talking about it or not, most people don't, most of us just keep it within ourselves and basically put on the happy face when in public and around your mates. And when they come home they are complete assholes. If you have been in that situation yourself you probably know what I am talking about. Anyhow, back to the possibility of making new friends and relationships, the one who I were writing about a few lines earlier asked me out, in a total non-gay way of course. But it was a human trying to reach out and make some contact, it was nice to see and I sat around home afterward and wondered why for quite a long time, and the only thing I could come up with was that he's in the same situation as me. Growing up, changing his mentality and all of sudden noticed that it isn't that much fun to hang around in town not do anything just talking shit about some random person you actually don't have anything against. I see myself as a quite pessimistic person, not seeing several possibility's for a reason, just sorting out a few ones and sticks to until I'm proven wrong.
One saying from where I come from is “When going in a train do you want to sit forward or backwards, seeing things as they come or see them as they go". And when you think about it, (you probably noticed that I am a thinker and not believer at this point) there is no real answer to that, sometimes you do want to know whats coming at you but when it comes to relationships you really need to sit so you see both. You want to see it as it develop, and how it goes, I don't think I have made it very clear what it is that I'm trying to explain here but further In after a bit more “blaha" and bullcrap I think it will sink in.
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