I am what I've always hated others for being..
I do the one thing I always hate others for doing..
.. although in a much much more nice, silent way..

I am a Hypocrite, of that I am aware..

how do you change things you dont like..
,.. when the thing you dont like is YOURSELF?

There's always more to every persons action.
There's more depth to the shallow.

I've always been judged by my appearence
by the way my insecurity manifests itself
how I express myself..

always been riddiculed, trampled on
.. like my opinion, my entire existence.. didn't matter..

this has greated another problem..
I have no trust in anyone..

I have no faith that people, friendship, relationships will ever last..

I've always been told how useless I am..

in my mind I can never truly deserve happiness

I have nothing to offer people..

I hate the fact that I've been judged all my life for my appearence etc..

and I hate the superficial society we have today..

all of these Judgemental fucks..
all those judgemental assholes out there..

... I am one of them.

this show on the tv made me think..

" there's always more depth to the shallow
always more to the story "

because I'm a judgemental prick.. I've become alone.
I damage myself everyday because I fully believe I have nothing to offer any living human being.

single-life sucks soo much balls I cant even explain it properly, even if i wanted too.

I keep pissing people off by saying that I'm not worthy of their company.

and thats true in my mind.
- because thats what people have told me
it may have been with actual words

silcence

actions
or absence.

this have made me cold.
I dont easily let people in.
once I do.. well..

lost track..

tho i wonder when I'll meet my queen.

soo far the people I've asked to take the crown.. has rejected my offer.

based on social status, my looks or any of my other flaws.

sigh well I'm tired.. and I make no sense anymore so..I'll end my text here and hope I've made some sense.

"Standing on the edge of the underworld
Looking at the abyss
and I'm hoping for some miracle
To breakout, to escape from all this.."

HenkaZ out...

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May 2019