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i tried to be perfect and i can tell you that it wasn't easy. it was the hardest thing in my life, but i gave it all and more for you. but you'll reach a certain point, when you realise it just wasn't enough.
you think you've done it all, but it breaks your heart when you understand you haven't. and it's so hard to always search after perfection, but time after time, you fail. again and again. and when you're down on your knees, when you think you've hit the bottom, it stabs you in the back and you're down. you feel so misrable and pathetic.
it's like you're nothing.
it'll take time for you to stand up again. it's one inch at the time. you can't take big steps, it has to be done slowly and carefully. but you will, some day, you will stand up with a back that's as straight as a man in the army. you will be able to look at yourself without feeling hate, disgrace and dishonour. it will take time, but you'll manage. but you do need the person that stabbed you, because that's the person that means the most to you. it says the time heals all wounds. and i do hope so, because i don't want it to just hide my wounds, i want time to heal them. to take them away.
i wanna feel free again.
jag behövde skriva av mig, jag vet att jag skrev i och and I, men sket i det. jag kanske inte heller stavade helt korrekt, men jag bryr mig inte ett jäkla piss om det.
you think you've done it all, but it breaks your heart when you understand you haven't. and it's so hard to always search after perfection, but time after time, you fail. again and again. and when you're down on your knees, when you think you've hit the bottom, it stabs you in the back and you're down. you feel so misrable and pathetic.
it's like you're nothing.
it'll take time for you to stand up again. it's one inch at the time. you can't take big steps, it has to be done slowly and carefully. but you will, some day, you will stand up with a back that's as straight as a man in the army. you will be able to look at yourself without feeling hate, disgrace and dishonour. it will take time, but you'll manage. but you do need the person that stabbed you, because that's the person that means the most to you. it says the time heals all wounds. and i do hope so, because i don't want it to just hide my wounds, i want time to heal them. to take them away.
i wanna feel free again.
jag behövde skriva av mig, jag vet att jag skrev i och and I, men sket i det. jag kanske inte heller stavade helt korrekt, men jag bryr mig inte ett jäkla piss om det.
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