“So Justin, who are you most comfortable around?"
One of the interviewees asks suddenly. I flip my hair and smile.
There’s nothing I can really say about Ryan & Chaz, just the fact that I can cry in front of them and they wouldn’t call me a fag.
They're there with me through thick and thin. I couldn’t ask for better best friends. “Okay you spray him in the back and I’ll spray him in the front." Chaz said as he shook his silly string can. I shook mine and on the count of three, we sprayed Ryan to his silly string death. He screamed and wiggled and we laughed so hard. He got up and started running around like a freak. I high-fived Chaz and watched Ryan run into a tree. We ran over to him and looked over him as he groaned on the floor.
“I thought I said we weren’t gonna spray my eyes." Ryan choked out as he got up from the leafy ground. Chaz patted him on the back.
“We don’t usually listen to you Ryan." He laughed and we went back to go clean off Ryan.
I got us some drinks and we sat around a circular table that was outside Chaz’s house.
I bit my lip and looked at Jazmyn play with Jaxon on the swing set.
Sometimes, I really wish I had my life back.
When it was normal to go out and eat with your friends.
When I had those water balloon fights with Ryan & Chaz.
When I could just be myself without some producer or reporter breathing down my back. I just wish I could laugh myself away this mess sometimes.
Chaz looked at me and nudged my elbow.
“What are you thinking about man?" I sighed and looked at both my friends.
“To be normal dude…" I sunk my head down a little and just looked at my converse.
Ryan suddenly got up and so did Chaz. They both hugged me and I just inhaled their hug. I cried then.
I wonder why I have such great people to support me all the way through. They’re always gonna be there, but I can’t always be there for them.
We sat there for a whole 5 minutes, just hugging each other. They’re not just my close friends. They are my brothers. They will always be my brothers.

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januari 2012