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"Dear diary...
Today I was a real shitty day. I miss my brother... I can't believe he just left. I can't breath sometimes, I have trouble to sleep. I'm still not used to go by very day without him by my side. I hate him for it, but I also understand him. He needed to getaway from me, I was hurting him... He needed to get away. But I still miss him with all my heart.
School sucks without him. I'm alone in a sea of strangers. Some of my classmates are real dicks. Most of them just pretends I'm not there, and that is actually quite ok for me. I don't really like them. Today I got to see again why. I got shoved in to my locker this afternoon. I didn't see it and were unprepared, so I actually went face first in to the corner... Got a black eye and a cut in my lower lip. I was letting my guard down. I don't even react to the names they call me anymore. I'm starting to think that fag and queer and similar is a middle name...
And then I got home, and my father took one look at my face and started to shout at me. he was yelling, asking me what happen, who did it, and why I didn't fight back... I'm so tired.. why can't he do anything else than yell...? It feels like he blames me for being who I am. I know he don't let me wear what I want to school, and he don't like it when I put make up on. I just wish he wouldn't scream and loose his temper so much.. makes me miss my brother even more... Thankfully mom came and saved me.
I'm so tired. I just want to lay down and cry. But tomorrow is another day, more school, more of all of this... I wonder if you actually can die from broken heart...? Hikaru, I miss you so much it hurts! I'm sorry for everything really... I just... wish you would be here right now, so we could talk, and I could cry and we could laugh. My life is hell right now, without you...
I should sleep, but sleep will not come to me right now. I guess I'm not used to sleep alone yet... But have to get some sleep so I don't fall asleep in school tomorrow. Can't let those idiots win. I will never buckle under their words or pokes. I will not let them win...
Good Night.
Hopefully.
//Kyo"
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Kyo is letting out some steam in his well hidden journal some late night when he was in the last year of high school. His older twin Hikaru (character belongs to @firebirde ) left him to study over seas the last year, leaving Kyo alone for the senior year. It was not a fun year for Kyo, he was very miserably. He no longer had his brother to protect him, having his back. He missed his brother so much it physically hurt. But he didn't give up. he would never do that. Kyo is a strong minded boy, he did get through it. But it was the worst year of his life. He missed his brother so much.
I will try and make at least one picture like this every month, with more story around it. So you can learn a bit more about my dolls I hope you will like it ^^
För större bild http://lajvio.deviantart.com/art/A-shitty-day-349017326
"Dear diary...
Today I was a real shitty day. I miss my brother... I can't believe he just left. I can't breath sometimes, I have trouble to sleep. I'm still not used to go by very day without him by my side. I hate him for it, but I also understand him. He needed to getaway from me, I was hurting him... He needed to get away. But I still miss him with all my heart.
School sucks without him. I'm alone in a sea of strangers. Some of my classmates are real dicks. Most of them just pretends I'm not there, and that is actually quite ok for me. I don't really like them. Today I got to see again why. I got shoved in to my locker this afternoon. I didn't see it and were unprepared, so I actually went face first in to the corner... Got a black eye and a cut in my lower lip. I was letting my guard down. I don't even react to the names they call me anymore. I'm starting to think that fag and queer and similar is a middle name...
And then I got home, and my father took one look at my face and started to shout at me. he was yelling, asking me what happen, who did it, and why I didn't fight back... I'm so tired.. why can't he do anything else than yell...? It feels like he blames me for being who I am. I know he don't let me wear what I want to school, and he don't like it when I put make up on. I just wish he wouldn't scream and loose his temper so much.. makes me miss my brother even more... Thankfully mom came and saved me.
I'm so tired. I just want to lay down and cry. But tomorrow is another day, more school, more of all of this... I wonder if you actually can die from broken heart...? Hikaru, I miss you so much it hurts! I'm sorry for everything really... I just... wish you would be here right now, so we could talk, and I could cry and we could laugh. My life is hell right now, without you...
I should sleep, but sleep will not come to me right now. I guess I'm not used to sleep alone yet... But have to get some sleep so I don't fall asleep in school tomorrow. Can't let those idiots win. I will never buckle under their words or pokes. I will not let them win...
Good Night.
Hopefully.
//Kyo"
__________________________
Kyo is letting out some steam in his well hidden journal some late night when he was in the last year of high school. His older twin Hikaru (character belongs to @firebirde ) left him to study over seas the last year, leaving Kyo alone for the senior year. It was not a fun year for Kyo, he was very miserably. He no longer had his brother to protect him, having his back. He missed his brother so much it physically hurt. But he didn't give up. he would never do that. Kyo is a strong minded boy, he did get through it. But it was the worst year of his life. He missed his brother so much.
I will try and make at least one picture like this every month, with more story around it. So you can learn a bit more about my dolls I hope you will like it ^^
För större bild http://lajvio.deviantart.com/art/A-shitty-day-349017326
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Camera info
Camera E-510
Focal length 42 mm
Aperture f/13.0
Shutter 1/1.6 s
ISO 400
Firebirde
Mon 21 Jan 2013 10:26
Muff ;____; Önskar jag vann på lotto så jag kunde skaffa hem hans bror som stor nu >____<
lajvio
Mon 21 Jan 2013 10:51
Han finns ju som basic på fairyland, så bara vänta tills du fåt ihop npg med pengar :) Men ja... Kyo mår dåligt när Hilu försvinner från hono =(
Firebirde
Mon 21 Jan 2013 10:55
Jag vet och är glad för det ^.^ så fort jag börjar få in lite pengar ska jag starta ett spar konto så jag kan lägga undan lite pengar varje gång :3
Gulwen
Fri 18 Jan 2013 21:57
Kramar från mig och de av mina pojkar och flickor med hjärtan och de e alla till kyo <3
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