I'm such a no-lifer for uploading like everyday. But I'm guessing it's been something I just do in the middle of the night.... as well as something else I've been starting to do.

I wish that I simply had a room that was soundproof right now. Play the guitar, make new songs, get these feelings out.... Instead I just feel.

I've always been able to run from stuff in my life, but what about loneliness? How do I run from that, you just don't fall in love like that, at least not me. And I never forget either, forget what it should be like.

What did that thing really mean....Why'd you do it? Why did I?

My mind is messing with me, or is it me messing with my mind?

Just one night of sleep, one night of feeling comfort in myself, one night....that's all I ask for.

I've been having dreams lately, dreams I can't explain, it's like all the people I care for deeply get way into em, I can speak to most of em. But one is a part of my past, someone I can't talk to, I struggle with that every day, every moment.

I won't forget anyone in my life, I won't truly let go of anyone that still wants me in their life. Even though it would be better for me, it's not who I am, I can't just stop caring now, can I?

I don't just struggle with my life, I try and take some of the struggling for others as well. That's all I can do, all I can do for this world, there's not a point in anything else, don't seem like it anyways.

Anyone but me noticed that without someone to love in your life, you don't really feel like living at all. I've been in a place of not wanting my life before, but this time it's different, this time I know I want to live, just not in this time and place.

I'm gonna try and catch some sleep now, this was to hopefully get somethings off my mind, somethings that I don't want to bother my sleep another night.....don't think it's gonna help that much, but if I only manage to wake up tomorrow and not feel like a train wreck, then I think I'll be alright.

"I'd push you away
But you are the only thing I know
At your feet I now lay
You are the only thing I know, I know

In a room where I once told you everything,
I am alone, I am alone
Once beholden to nothing
And no one how is it that I am slave
to these eyes which glisten with untold secrets
that I crave so wildly to understand?
I must steel my heart to your warm gaze
I'll claw out my eyes and see you no more

It's because of you I sometimes wish that I would die
Sometimes I wish I would die
Leaving you behind
Enraptured by my ignorance,
I now deserve sympathy"

Annons

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Anonymous Wed 30 Nov 2011 21:26

snygg <3

LendMyHeartbeat Wed 30 Nov 2011 22:25

tack :$

Anonymous Thu 1 Dec 2011 17:35

hihihihi

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