i don't know why i feel like i do atm,, or rather why don't feel at all... i have everything that one needs, more than most... still, i'm empty... i am alone... ridding myself of everyone who could possibly hurt me again and of those who has have left me pretty much without anyo it seems,, i feel like i'm starting to shut everything and everyone that's left out now. that's not good, and i know it... i'm depressed i think, but i'm not sure why, cause i don't really have anything to be depressed over... other than my lack of well, someones... i've had someones , many someones, i didn't really have a hard time getting them, but now it seems i have just that, a really hard time at it... i'm afraid i'm turing into that girl i once were, the girl who didn't dare look a guy in the eye, the witless and boring girl who was just to afraid of what she didn't know... i don't know how to stop it, i just know that it's happening,, i don't want this, but i don't know what to do... i cry alot on the inside where noone will see, again, everyday almost, even when i laugh and joke around i cry... i'm lonely, i feel like noone understands, like i can nolonger trust anyone,, i'm to afraid of getting hurt i guess...

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November 2010