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i wanted to test your feelings for me, but i should never have
because the truth hurts more then the lie we both lived in. u hurt me so damn deeply with your lies when they finally got through the thick wall u had built up to pretect them with.
Its one thing to do what u did, but its an hole other thing to afterwards tell the truth or pretect your self with another lie. because its not the actions that hurts the most, its the lies. its with them u destroy my trust for u. and sure, u've said u're sorry, like a thousands of times. but whats the point, when u do the same mistake time after time?
sure - i love u to death.. but is love worth to suffer this much for? im still searching for the answer on that question, but i cant deside what to do - because i love u to much.
im drowning in all unknowing, dont knowing - whats the truth. do u know the feeling of having no one to trust? well welcome to my life. the one and only, i had deeply trust for - showed of him self to be an total asshole. but still i love him to much to let him go.. so either u make up for everything with a miracle, or show me how much u really love me. because i cant take this any longer.
if u show your self some dignity, sure im gonna try to put all this behind me - but u have to earn it first. u cant just say that i should forgive u right away, because every one makes mistakes? i know that everyone makes mistakes, and sure i forgive people when they do. but not those who do the same mean mistake over and over again - it tireds me out.
and just one question? how the fuck can u say that im your hole life, when u in like ten minutes can be so in to somebody else because of their good looks? its that real love? well, i certenly dont think so anyway.
and when i get mad for u when u lied for me, then people come to me and ask if i've never lied for u? but surpresenly no, i havent acually. sure ive pulled some white lies to get yooooour lies out of your black tongue. but if u wanna call that a lie, go ahead - it doesnt mind me.
and u say that i destroy u? ha-ha-ha, shall we talk of all the things u've done to me first ha? well i didnt think so either. of course i give u some payback, what did u expect feedback your idiot? nonono, i dont give as much hurt as u gave me, but i atleast let u try your one medicine for a minute. but fuck yeah, i feel quilt for that - and i've said im sorry. but its still nothing compares to u.
but even though, ive gotten through all these things - i havent dropped a single tear for u boy. and acually, im pretty proud over my self. because a boy that do like this? isnt worth to cry for. but even if i know that, i know that im not gonna hold them in many hours longer.
and my life without u is nothing compares to having u in it, and it bothers me so damn much that u've made me love u that much. because with another boy - i would wave good bye a looong time ago. but u've got something special boy.. and i hate it. everything would be so damn easier if i just could let u go, but u know what? know i cant..
you're my sun, remember?
because the truth hurts more then the lie we both lived in. u hurt me so damn deeply with your lies when they finally got through the thick wall u had built up to pretect them with.
Its one thing to do what u did, but its an hole other thing to afterwards tell the truth or pretect your self with another lie. because its not the actions that hurts the most, its the lies. its with them u destroy my trust for u. and sure, u've said u're sorry, like a thousands of times. but whats the point, when u do the same mistake time after time?
sure - i love u to death.. but is love worth to suffer this much for? im still searching for the answer on that question, but i cant deside what to do - because i love u to much.
im drowning in all unknowing, dont knowing - whats the truth. do u know the feeling of having no one to trust? well welcome to my life. the one and only, i had deeply trust for - showed of him self to be an total asshole. but still i love him to much to let him go.. so either u make up for everything with a miracle, or show me how much u really love me. because i cant take this any longer.
if u show your self some dignity, sure im gonna try to put all this behind me - but u have to earn it first. u cant just say that i should forgive u right away, because every one makes mistakes? i know that everyone makes mistakes, and sure i forgive people when they do. but not those who do the same mean mistake over and over again - it tireds me out.
and just one question? how the fuck can u say that im your hole life, when u in like ten minutes can be so in to somebody else because of their good looks? its that real love? well, i certenly dont think so anyway.
and when i get mad for u when u lied for me, then people come to me and ask if i've never lied for u? but surpresenly no, i havent acually. sure ive pulled some white lies to get yooooour lies out of your black tongue. but if u wanna call that a lie, go ahead - it doesnt mind me.
and u say that i destroy u? ha-ha-ha, shall we talk of all the things u've done to me first ha? well i didnt think so either. of course i give u some payback, what did u expect feedback your idiot? nonono, i dont give as much hurt as u gave me, but i atleast let u try your one medicine for a minute. but fuck yeah, i feel quilt for that - and i've said im sorry. but its still nothing compares to u.
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maybe now you are wondering. "Whats andrew stuff?"
You could watch me drink fron the lake or have sex with me. and evrything between.
svar: ja.
Naah,
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