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I wish you could ask me, I wish you could confront me and just order me to spit it out.
I wish I knew if you would stay by my side or if you would run away if i told you.
I wish I knew if you would look at me in another way, better or worse.
Are you even ready to see what´s in my heart hiding from the world, locked up safely inside?
I wish you could hold my hand when the tears are running down my face, just hold me tight without saying a word, just listen and hear me.
When I feel ashamed and turn away, please don´t let me go, hold me tighter, make me feel safe. Please don´t run away, let me know that you will be by my side even afterwards.
I am more than you see, I am hiding pain and miserybehind my energy, smile and laugh.
When I look secure I am shaking as a leaf.
Are you ready to see what´s in my heart, are you ready for my commitment, for my trust and loyalty? Are you ready to give me safety?
There is no time to fall apart, there is no time to feel sorry for myself, but when it happens I wish for you to be there and catch me when I fall.
Everyone expects me to manage everything, that I am perfect in everything I do, that nothing is wrong, that I respect everyone, that I am such a good hearted person. They don´t know the painful price I have to pay for it. Is it even worth it?
My past has shaped me to who I am today. Sometimes the memories are haunting me. I can either choose to smile and keep going or to break down. There is no time for breaking down.
I wish sometimes people knew so they wouldn´t judge me beafore they knew me, I wish sometimes that people knew so that they would understand my reasons behind my answers.
I wish for the screams inside would go away, I wish for my heart to stop hurting everytime I remember or when the words are getting me, I wish for the wounds to heal.
I wish I could feel the safety in more people so I could fall apart and let everything out, heal my heart, mind and soul.
It´s time to deal with it, time to get up, move on and get stronger
I wish I knew if you would stay by my side or if you would run away if i told you.
I wish I knew if you would look at me in another way, better or worse.
Are you even ready to see what´s in my heart hiding from the world, locked up safely inside?
I wish you could hold my hand when the tears are running down my face, just hold me tight without saying a word, just listen and hear me.
When I feel ashamed and turn away, please don´t let me go, hold me tighter, make me feel safe. Please don´t run away, let me know that you will be by my side even afterwards.
I am more than you see, I am hiding pain and miserybehind my energy, smile and laugh.
When I look secure I am shaking as a leaf.
Are you ready to see what´s in my heart, are you ready for my commitment, for my trust and loyalty? Are you ready to give me safety?
There is no time to fall apart, there is no time to feel sorry for myself, but when it happens I wish for you to be there and catch me when I fall.
Everyone expects me to manage everything, that I am perfect in everything I do, that nothing is wrong, that I respect everyone, that I am such a good hearted person. They don´t know the painful price I have to pay for it. Is it even worth it?
My past has shaped me to who I am today. Sometimes the memories are haunting me. I can either choose to smile and keep going or to break down. There is no time for breaking down.
I wish sometimes people knew so they wouldn´t judge me beafore they knew me, I wish sometimes that people knew so that they would understand my reasons behind my answers.
I wish for the screams inside would go away, I wish for my heart to stop hurting everytime I remember or when the words are getting me, I wish for the wounds to heal.
I wish I could feel the safety in more people so I could fall apart and let everything out, heal my heart, mind and soul.
It´s time to deal with it, time to get up, move on and get stronger
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