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Honestly I'd rather die than keep living like this.. Nothing happends.. Are we gonna die tomorrow? Doubt it.
My thoughts.. Is the so called "name" for this text.
Not that anyone realy cares..
So here goes:
I feel an void in my chest.
I cant realy explain it. Just an emptyness that whants to kill everyone.
Not that I will kill everyone. But I'd be more than happy if something happend to this world 2012-12-12.
And by "something" I mean like: Meteorshowers all over the world, something like the movie "2012" or Lucifer shows his face and the party gets started!
But thats probably not gonna happend..
I've been saying to some of my friends that I'm gonna comitte suicide at the age of 50/60 by overdose.
But I doubt that I will live that long...
So this will probably be the first collection of thought.
I can fall in love with someone.. But the relationshi(t)p dosn't last long.
Cuz' basicly I'm complicated.
And Weird..
The only time I'm truly happy is within my dreams.
I may seem happy if you meet me. But that's just a mask.
Becouse I dont whant others to feel pity for me.
Or be too afraid of me.
Cant say that I've been happy the last.. Whats it been?. 10.. maybe 12years.
Tried to take my life once. Obviously failed.. Or this might be purgatory.. the F*ck do I know?
Wanna know about my dream?
Sure.
I'm a offspring of Lucifer.
Can you imagine that? Doubt that aswell. Unless your a "Anti-Christ"..
Anywho, Being a dream and all that, I have the diabolic/dragonish wings, can control and create fire with my bare hands
I'm known by the name Shadow, becouse of black wings,because I mainly showed up at night, being an assassin and can emerge with the shadows.
I'm known through out almost the entire world..
Might be becouse I kinda destroyed New york and Los Angeles. And created a "fortress" in the Amazonas.
As you noticed I have a very lively imagination.. Always had it..
The thing about this dream is that it reappears..
An ongoing dream. So to speak.
It started with an meteor to the head.
Destroyed a fourth part of the town I live in.
Created a something like a mutation through out the world
And somehow I survived. Mutated and got contacted by Lucifer. When the conversation ended I woke up from the dream..
But It didnt feel like a dream.. It felt like an alternate reality.
Have you ever had a dream that was so real that you could feel (imagine) the pain when you hit something, fell down a staircase or whatever?
That's how the dream has been from that point. I could kinda feel 5% of the pain in each dream.
And here's a crazy thing about this dream.. And other daydreams..
I create people out of my imagination that I've never seen or met before.
And later on that day, week or month I see that person in real life!
And It's not just an illusion or hallucination. Déjà vu.
But that's not with everyone I create out of my imagination.
Becouse that would realy freak me out...
Anywho, back to the point.
After that conversation with Lucifer I started to believe in a greater power beneath me.
(Hell, Lucifer, Heaven, "God" and all the shit that comes with them)
And it's been going on from that point of life.
Though I need a sign from Lucifer to realy believe in him.
Not that it will happend while I'm alive. I suppose.
And thats that.
I could call myself and "Anti-Christ".. but it dosnt feel right.. I like the word "Satanist" more.
Yes, I believe that Lucifer exist.
Yes, I'd rather go to hell than heaven. (If it exists..)
An eternity of pain might turn me into my psycotic self.
And yes I'd rather be a soldier of Lucifers army or just another soul in the pits of hell than an Angel.
I consists of three parts.
Me, myself and I.
"Me" is.. Well me, the side you can see in public. And a pervert.
"Myself" is the angry kid inside of me thats whant to kill someone. You dont whant to make me angry.
"I" is the dark side of me thats whant to watch the world burn. And would be gladly to help someone create an worldwide nuclear war.
So psycotic, suicidal, angry and a pervert..
Thats my conclusion..
Is there anything left to tell the world?
Do tell me if there's something your wondering about.
Dont think that anyone realy read the whole text.
And "stupid" comments will be deleted.
Have a nice life!
Annons
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