Stepping out of the boat

We had our first youth for the year tonight. It was perty good. Although we only had four kids there. The other ones were either busy with basketball or they didn't know about it, cuz I don't have a way to tell them about it. But that shall change. I'm in for getting really serious about this, engaging and involving the kids in the church some more. I think it would be good.
So what did I preach about tonight? Well, as mentioned, stepping out of the boat. I read from Matthew 14:22-33. That's when Jesus walked on water, and Peter walked towards him. So, yeah, encouraging them to step out of their comfort zone (the boat) and get out there and do what God wants us to do (walk on water). It's scary (wind, waves, etc.) but God is there to help us at all times. We just have to cry out to him for help, and immediately he is there. For real. He promised, and believe me, God is a man of his word. Seriously. Without a doubt. The person with doubt is us. And that is what easily brings us down. Jesus said that all we need is faith, to be saved. It says in the Bible that faith as small as a mustard seed (and that is not much faith at all!) can move a mountain. So just believing a little will do a lot. I know that, this other day God was showing me a little about faith. It kept popping up everywhere. I got this present where it said "we live by faith and not by sight" or something like that, and on the radio it was the story about the woman who was sick and pushed herself through the crowd just to touch Jesus' cloak, cuz she believed that that would heal her. And Jesus turns to her and says truly, your faith has saved you. So. I was really stupid while taking out my cake from the oven, and forgot to use the hand with the mitten to grab it instead of the other hand without a mitten, and seriously burnt every single finger on one of my hands. And, after all of that I was standing in the shower, the warm water really feeding the pain with more pain, and wishing from the bottom of my heart that God would miraculously take the pain away. And then I remember the whole faith thing and believing thing. So I tried it, I knew God promised to help if we had faith and I knew that he could heal some burns on my fingertips. And guess what? The pain just slipped off. Like, it was dirt that rinsed off with the water. It was cool. And then I had no blisters after wards too. Haha. Amazing. God is surely cool. So yeah. Step out of the boat, get out there and do what God wants you to do. Healing sounds distant, but it's really not. Just believe. And you will see wonders.

I'm so hungry. Third day of fasting, and my system is now getting rid of all the remains of junk that's been going around from stuff I've been eating. My legs are in serious pain, and I don't know if that is because of the fasting, my basketball game or if a lowpressure is coming or something. But they are seriously hurting. And my stomach is growling, it's so used to getting food down at this hour, so it's missing the company. But I just have to get through this. Tomorrow things will be getting better.
What I read about in my spiritual food today, was character of a creative person for God. Or a person for God in average. Not being all fake and stuff. Living as you preach kinda thing. I mean, seriously. You can't go trying to be all holy and preaching and talking about God and all the wonders of Him and so so, and then just turn around the next day and live a life that is the total opposite of what you just said! That's what makes unbelievers ...unbelieve even more. It's also stupid. I can't understand how a person could do such a thing, but hey, it's not uncommon.
You can't either be fake like pretending that a christian life is a dance on roses. Cuz it most definitely is not. Especially for creative people. We are very sensitive. I feel miserable so often. And not only for me, but for others. When I think about the day that Jesus will come back I am so happy, but I am also so miserable and sad, thinking about all the people that won't go to heaven. All my friends... And that makes me even worse, thinking about them, cuz I really don't know how to talk to them about it. I mean, I don't wanna probe on the subject. Goooosh, so hard. Anyways, no acting like life is hunkydory easy joy.  It's not. And people can see if a person is being fake. And that is very unattractive. Siiiiigh. I'm tired.

It has been such a long day. I got done with all my work around like, 2, and yet I had to stay until 5! Dumb. Felt like I was cheating the company off of money. But I did my best to work with something at least.
I want to work out. Maybe that's why my legs hurt. Just sitting around. Should go for a nice run tomorrow. Yeaaah. Word. I'm heading to bed now.
Good night y'all!
-Peace